Sunday, May 3, 2009

Inspired, Scatter-Brained and Regretful

I feel really inspired to write right now.  No real reason.  No real topic or ideas, but I really want to share with the world this moment.  

Working out is so much harder than I thought it would be.  After running a mere 1.5 miles, my breath stops falling in and out of my mouth and starts running as if it's the Indian Jones to my huge rolling boulder.  Although, having music helps.  But we already knew that...

Today was Creepy Man at Starbucks Day.  Apparently, I only attract older (extremely older) creepy men.  

Also, I just noticed... It just started raining.  Right after I ran.  Man, am I grateful.

Whoa.  This is maybe the most scatter-brained blog post in the history of blog posts.  I guess that's what happens when I don't have a plan.

My great-grandmother died this week.  I didn't really know her very well; I had only seen her a few times at family gatherings and such.  My mom is taking it really hard though.  She used to spend every summer at her house.  Not only is it hard to see my mom so upset, but it really made me realize the importance of family.  I guess before I was "too cool" to go visit with them, but now that she's gone and I don't know her, I feel really bad.  (run-on)  I should have taken the initiative.  Silver-lining:  I have a second chance.  I won't let this happen with my other grandparents.  Once they're gone it's too late.  

My great-grandmother who barely knew me kept a picture of me and my younger siblings from 2001 on her bedside table.  She asked about me hours before she passed.  I was at home.  On the computer.  I have never regretted anything more in my life.  

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love you Tony. You are my inspiration, my friend, my shoulder to cry on and you will never understand just how much you mean to me. Please don't make the same mistake I made. It only takes a phone call to tell someone you love them.

sarah said...

i think that the best thing we can get from death is renewal of our own life... does that makes sense?

people i love have died. but i learnt not to let it become something that brought me down. rather we have to live more to celebrate the end of their time through life itself

god i am bad at wording this stuff

Tony said...

No, Sarah. That makes complete and perfect sense. Quite inspirational. :)